Self-Compassion: Listening to the tone.....

I guess for a start, listening to yourself and being curious..... I do try to notice my own discomfort and check in on my inner dialogue but an incident a couple of days ago led me to re-evaluate my self-compassion! On this occasion, I really “heard” my self-talk…. the content seemed to develop a “rational” answer, but it wasn’t really resonating true and I suddenly realised it wasn’t what I was saying but how I was saying it. I wasn’t believing it, I wasn’t “feeling it” and the reason? It was all in the tone! Because my internal dialogue wasn’t that of an “equal” - my tone to myself was condescending and berating. It wasn’t how I would speak to someone else! Although my words “that’s not helpful right now….” were accurate, in acknowledging my tone (which made it sound more like a “well that’s not helpful is it?!.... tut-tut you shouldn’t think like that...” kind-of-tone) I was able to repeat it in a more compassionate and helpful way; acknowledging that I felt uncomfortable, that what I was experiencing was normal human stuff and I could do something different if I wanted. By forgiving myself for being human and not “telling myself off” I allowed myself to believe, to feel, that something else was possible.

​The Cambridge dictionary defines compassion as a strong feeling of sympathy and sadness for other people’s suffering or bad luck and a desire to help”. It implies some kind of suffering together BUT with the aim of moving forward.  So, compassion for others engages us in feeling both emotionally and physically another’s pain/suffering. However, compassion is not just about empathy; putting yourself in (what it might be like to be in) someone else's shoes, nor is it about personalising their pain or being kind at the expense of moving forward, (although kindness may be shown in compassion).  So for instance, it’s not about just reassuring ourselves that everything is ok – because in fact everything ISN’T always ok!  Sometimes what is needed is honesty and that can involve discomfort. Although compassion is not cruel and un-thinking, it can sometimes also take a confidence/courage to say what is needed, perhaps, especially to ourselves; but with compassion there IS a belief that there will be a way forward. Sometimes this might include saying something is not ok or saying “no” to something but it in a way that demonstrates an equality i.e. not pitying, berating or talking down but respecting the other as one human being to another (or to yourself as a human being) .

​sometimes we also need to notice and acknowledge our less helpful traits, acknowledge when something isn’t ok, learn to tolerate the discomfort; and with mindful awareness of our discomfort we might develop a way forward and allow ourselves to “let go” of mind blocking negative feelings such as guilt, shame and anger. Like the process of forgiveness in which no one is let off the hook; we are all accountable for our own thoughts and behaviour, but we don’t have to hold them unchanged and therefore hold negative feeling. There are some things that just aren’t ok but in reminding ourselves of healthy boundaries and accepting that we are not infallible we can keep trying to do something that is helpful.